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This Fucking Day

This day has been shit.  I've been trying to make the best of it, but it's just been shit.  I woke up after what felt like a full night of sleep at 11:53 pm.  I'd been asleep for 2 hours.  Keats was asleep on top of me.  My eyeballs were so dry that it was painful.  I took Keaton to his own bed and fell back asleep.  I dreamed about my Grandpa who died 4 years ago for what felt like hours.  And usually when I see him in my sleep, it is happy, and calming, and I wake up grateful to have spent the time with him.  Last night it wasn't like that.  I dreamt of his death.  My mind made up things that didn't really happen and I woke up at 2:24 am stressed out and anxiety ridden.  My whole body was tense.  And I've been rattled all day since.  My work was cancelled today on account of the weather.  I had plans to sleep in, and write, and read, and nap.  I woke up a bit after 5 am because Keaton was crying and coug...